a shadow on the hillside
your own
the sun setting
a “normal” day
wish-ish to make believe in
hero you
hero true
shadow you
and persevere
no more
pursue engage
with swiftness
with the proper sage rage
oh well alas
we turn the corner and become
one with musicbox
when the light
divides into
infinite?
is it
really
you or
is it really
me thinking of you
again
again in the day
again in the night
again in a song
again in my fright
again in the missing
is it you
or a missing piece of me?
nearly there nearly there
so real
am always wanting to mark this apex
in a way
that is
as though
reverb of light
echo of light
trailing light
can traverse through
next
I never manage the right reverence though
I can’t fling things forward
except to hope
and hope is not light
hope is probably made of light
but it isn’t light
a cycle upon a cycle an end a beginning a climax a relentless turn
each song
a life
each life
a death
once there
running the dune
just a break between here and there
maybe the big break
that one moment
or any other
a begin again
a prayer
prayer a
plan b
a plan to see
t
here we are in the reprieve
such a nice place to be
leave
if you believe me
when I say
hey hey
baby
here we are in the recalled
where the night becomes a walled
garden and your dreams
repeat
and make some new new
true blue
through and through
you hue
new
hopes and dreams
dispense forthwith
climbing up that river valley
I was most good at
believing
Whatever whatever whatever
faith
next
go go
no thinks
or inhale. whichever.
what am I doing?
missed under
stood firm
wish asunder
good
next
it aint perfect. it aint it aint
couldn’t type
discipline
falling back into a dream
a continuity
btw I am trying to put out some live action action for you. hope you enjoy.
it’s getting hot
in there
somewhere
a river of delusion
a confusion
rushes over
like all news all the time
purposeful, deranging
underneath, the molten core
inside all the burning
a side affect of the turning
looking for to
volcano
looking for to
meld
here’s your gritty meditation for forever
at least we are together, put it on repeat let’s stay here forever.
dust the brush away the noise in the loop sequence in the clouds is making me feel excuse me while ish
not in that sense. more hopeful. but also aggravated.
it’s not yet time
to burn it all down
it may be
soon
when you sing through the void
filled and filled and filled
the horizon with a long shadow of longing
oh now we’re going to have to get out in the streets or
else we are
passive fascists
for thee
forever
for me forever
pull the lever
never
this song never ends!
no songs ever end!
never mind
that four never
happened.
never mind that it never will
where the line is drawn
or rather
what i call my random song when i’m sort of tired and frustrated in the studio
both with myself and with my hardware and with all these damn screens
and with not being able to make music beautiful enough to take me
there
and go and go and go and be
with me too
wanderin
you,
still.
if i force myself to just be ok with
that line of you
that beach that
missing piece that
will always be missing
because
you were
that piece that
place
that
possibility
that
face
that
body
that
presence
that missed opportunity
that
repression
that
oh so close
ness
you are welcome
here
oh and always
and tonight
too
beautiful light
five alive
pull into
and out of
and through
that i love you
so much
minus the glory
where we practice
this one was live ish
there can be no doubt
there can be no out
disintegrate into
whatever happens to
influence you
sometimes it makes sense that’s where i’ve been going my whole life
was
a dream that somehow lasts several years
but the place is the same
of total lost ness
and a blank face
staring up at the sky
and staring down from the sky
back from wherever
old memories live
i liked being there
in that dream
