nor anywhere in between
neither
nor anywhere in between
neither
sometimes these are a way of me correcting trends
like, i always want to make art
but i don’t
and feel like i can’t
and also who cares what i call art in my own head
you know, i just want to be able to make things that make me feel like that i’m not just laying on the floor staring at the ceiling
i do
filled and filled and filled
the horizon with a long shadow of longing
without it
where am i
and who are you
who i can’t reach
who i can’t even touch
.who knows where
i’d be without
longing for you
oh now we’re going to have to get out in the streets or
else we are
passive fascists
this song never ends!
no songs ever end!
never mind
that four never
happened.
never mind that it never will
where the line is drawn
or rather
what i call my random song when i’m sort of tired and frustrated in the studio
both with myself and with my hardware and with all these damn screens
and with not being able to make music beautiful enough to take me
there
on all in all in all in
to get behind the
veil
the
veil
well, yes it has been a little while.
it was good, actually, to take a break from even these, and kind of do the things i guess i do when up with my family and in northern california. lots of listening more than making noise maybe is the easiest way to put it.
let’s hope 2020 gets better than the shitshow it has started as!
dancing around and playing
greatest all time
all on trial
why not call
let me know!
you,
still.
if i force myself to just be ok with
that line of you
that beach that
missing piece that
will always be missing
because
you were
that piece that
place
that
possibility
that
face
that
body
that
presence
that missed opportunity
that
repression
that
oh so close
ness
if i do if i do if i do
i will be true i will be true
i will be there i will be there i will be there
again and again and again and again
disrupt and dance
and
fall apart and
dance again
you are welcome
here
oh and always
and tonight
too
beautiful light
five alive
pull into
and out of
and through
i don’t know man it just
gets weird sometimes
woman
man
between
dam
that i love you
so much
minus the glory
going out of our way
to ensure
there is no end
there can be no doubt
there can be no out
we are getting there
and we will
get it done right
and it will not not be done
and again
and again
and again
if there were
such a time
as now
and then
disintegrate into
whatever happens to
influence you
whatever whatever whatever,
Whatever … whatever!
sometimes it makes sense that’s where i’ve been going my whole life
was
was offered a chance to climb up the tower, and then to climb another tower, much more inspired. took the chance. got a decision maker.
back from wherever
old memories live
i liked being there
in that dream
i miss you!
an imperfect return
to normalcy
to share
with you
just wanted to say
hi
i hope you are
well
are you
me?
au revoir
it’s summertime
why sleep?
i want to go back to just
whatever
being there,
man,
i guess?
and that’s why
i keep doing it
clearly!
to breathe
and that
we are like
eachother
and in this
together and
it is scary
right?
and exhilarating?
we going to make it
we going to make it all the way
big cheese
inside some where
a fire
that went
nearly out
all that blowing blowing
smoothly going
nowhere