where the line is drawn
or rather
what i call my random song when i’m sort of tired and frustrated in the studio
both with myself and with my hardware and with all these damn screens
and with not being able to make music beautiful enough to take me
there
on all in all in all in
to get behind the
veil
the
veil
well, yes it has been a little while.
it was good, actually, to take a break from even these, and kind of do the things i guess i do when up with my family and in northern california. lots of listening more than making noise maybe is the easiest way to put it.
let’s hope 2020 gets better than the shitshow it has started as!
almost there!
dancing around and playing
greatest all time
all on trial
and go and go and go and be
with me too
why not call
let me know!
wanderin
you,
still.
if i force myself to just be ok with
that line of you
that beach that
missing piece that
will always be missing
because
you were
that piece that
place
that
possibility
that
face
that
body
that
presence
that missed opportunity
that
repression
that
oh so close
ness
which is what it feels like
here
where i am now
ok
and warm
and safe
and grateful
and lucky
and able to make music
what a life
what a life i say!
what a life!
disrupt and dance
and
fall apart and
dance again
you are welcome
here
oh and always
and tonight
too
beautiful light
five alive
pull into
and out of
and through
i don’t know man it just
gets weird sometimes
woman
man
between
dam
minus the glory
where we practice
this one was live ish
going out of our way
to ensure
there is no end
we are getting there
and we will
get it done right
and it will not not be done
and again
and again
and again
if there were
such a time
as now
and then
disintegrate into
whatever happens to
influence you
whatever whatever whatever,
Whatever … whatever!
sometimes it makes sense that’s where i’ve been going my whole life
was
was offered a chance to climb up the tower, and then to climb another tower, much more inspired. took the chance. got a decision maker.
a dream that somehow lasts several years
but the place is the same
of total lost ness
and a blank face
staring up at the sky
and staring down from the sky
back from wherever
old memories live
i liked being there
in that dream
an imperfect return
to normalcy
to share
with you
just wanted to say
hi
i hope you are
well
are you
me?
au revoir
it’s summertime
why sleep?
i want to go back to just
whatever
being there,
man,
i guess?
and that’s why
i keep doing it
clearly!
to breathe
and that
we are like
eachother
and in this
together and
it is scary
right?
and exhilarating?
we going to make it
we going to make it all the way
big cheese
inside some where
a fire
that went
nearly out
all that blowing blowing
smoothly going
nowhere
fake it
til you make it
who knew this
would all rise like the skin of the earth
from the path
from the pull up down
of a vibrating note
a vibrating string
everything builds into this
evening
suddenly it seems
you and me are
in need
monstrous wave
come
break ing
and
entering
in my
boring day
push me
through until
against the
very air
and i was torn
asunder
thrown under
her wave
this whole of life
made sine
following the crest of
her line
