I remember vaguely now playing in bands and orchestras forever forever and the main thing was to not stop especially with a new piece just play all the way. I don’t love what I am in lately, musically, I’m trying to escape a certain gravity, but I’m just going to keep playing. Amen.
let’s just pretend that evil idiots aren’t seemingly going to ruin all our lives
I won’t!
take one sentence and put it back in to
the book
take another look
dance around and dance around
the body the blood the wood the should
I’ll see through you if you see through me and we’ll be free
cover ground oh yeah,
cover sound
maybe I can just like cheeeeeerlead
weirdly
turn the block and everyone can
heeeeearrrme
ruination
reunite
reunion
rumi
rum
random I know
who else is gonna do it?
only you
and this sound
and you know
like
the time taken
the the mind makin’
the fine place of
a you that is
this song
climbing up that river valley
I miss this dialogue
both the one with you and me
and the one with the sky where we signal how are you?
i do
almost there!
and go and go and go and be
with me too
let me know!
if i force myself to just be ok with
that line of you
that beach that
missing piece that
will always be missing
because
you were
that piece that
place
that
possibility
that
face
that
body
that
presence
that missed opportunity
that
repression
that
oh so close
ness
which is what it feels like
here
where i am now
ok
and warm
and safe
and grateful
and lucky
and able to make music
what a life
what a life i say!
what a life!
a dream that somehow lasts several years
but the place is the same
of total lost ness
and a blank face
staring up at the sky
and staring down from the sky
and that’s why
i keep doing it
clearly!
fake it
til you make it
or don’t
or go
or
never
stop
and go on and go
far
and go
for it
and go go
grow grow
i was going to go there
but
instead…
well…
you can guess the rest
good to know
yesterday morning
still exists
somewhere
oh well
i tried!
north
south
and other
in between
all memories
pretend
my friend
that you are on the mend
and that all the things
YOU THINK YOU NEED
are just around the bend
never gonna
giver you upper
as you can hear
my studio
oh sweet studio
9 years studio!
is very well insulated
season 4
out of
infinity
i don’t need no
numbers
oi how many times
over and over and over
can we repeat the same
and still
allow
this
to happen
it’s enough
i never even showed up
to the battlefield
truth be told
?
i tried to mend
but couldn’t even
begin
tried to bend
i couldn’t actually
even break!
I don’t always have to like these
i don’t know if i like this one
right now
it’s cool that i accidentally did that fancy thing that fancy music majors do when they use weird rhythms
and yes i’m proud that i didn’t do it on purpose
per se
but i don’t know what this feeling is here:
a waiting
an unresolved
an unknown
somewhere always winding
and no resolution
unresolved
unresolved mystery
i don’t have to like these
or even do a good job
or love them
or do them at all
ok?
and yet
it lives here.
too long
to sit
on site
and breathe
all saying
go now
into concrete
later tonight
be peace
don’t worry
always evolving
fully
just forget it
hey
i didn’t say
they all were masterpieces
in fact
they aren’t even for you!
or me!
at all!!
